Deficiency and Pride

This morning I turned on some music as I was checking my finances and these lyrics "randomly" came to my ears:

Holy design
This place in time
That I might seek your face, my God
My God



Lord I want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion
Over You, and only You
Lord I want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion
Over You, and only You
Lord I want to yearn

Your joy is mine
Yet why am i fine
With all my singing and bringing grain
In light of Him

Oh You give life and breath
In You we live and move
That's why I sing

~ "Yearn" by Shane and Shane

When looking at my finances, I sincerely questioned whether I would be able to tithe this paycheck. My heart breaks to find the discomfort in the answer. But you know what's funny? It's not even a deficiency problem. It seems to be a pride problem. Can I ask for help?

I believe God is Big.
I believe God is Mighty.
I believe God provides.
And even in discomfort, all I need is given to me.
Just ask.

So out of the GREAT gain of knowing Christ Jesus, My Lord, self-denial and leaving behind pride seem to be such easier steps.

I just have to keep my eyes on Christ.

I trust my God.

He will be exalted through my obedience.